In Another Life

This fanfic broke my heart three years ago... But it also got me absorted into getting to know better about FFI and other prion diseases, as much as considering it for my thesis' theme (which i'm doing this year), unfortunately, it was too difficult of a topic which would make the work harder, hahaBut anyways, I found it again and wanted to thank you for writing such a sad masterpiece. It made me feel... so much. There's not many fics that achieve to move its readers like that. Absolutely gorgeous work, and thank you so much for bringing a topic like this, not so talked about. It meant a lot to me to discover something so tragic that actually happens somewhere in the world but doesn't get the spotlight.

i don’t think i’ve ever cried this hard because of a fic. i am in p a i n .

This was absolutely breathtaking and I cannot stop crying. Thank you so much

holy fuck why am i crying again

FUCK i’ve never cried so hard at an angst fic in my LIFE! I think because it was a slow, gradual descent, it was agonising; beautifully written but so damn painful. I want to simultaneously hug you and hit you ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Wow. Just... Wow. Here I am, 4 years later after this masterpiece was written, crying like a baby. I knew what I was getting into, but still, it didn't hurt any less. Having Bokuto, the most purest and happiest character, suffer like this... Really was painful to read.Your writing was amazing, and the way the characters acted felted way TOO real. I think my heart nearly exploded in the "Life is unfair" part. I just can't see Bokuto like that... I cried too.And yet, between tears, I was able to smile again while reading the "You're beautiful" part. And now, after I finished to cry, I'll go and search for some fluff and soft BokuAka. Another Life where the may be happy. Ahahah maybe I was too sappy, but this was an amazing read. Thank you very much!

I cried 5 times while reading this and I’m currently crying now I’ve never been more emotional after a fanfic... This is so beautiful and sad at the same time I seriously can’t describe how I feel after that.

I cried so much omg :(( im so sad this was so beautiful and so tragic. Im feeling so many emotions right now. Thank you for writing this !

There goes my heart, broken in multiple shardsThere goes my tears, rolling down my face quickly and staining my pillowsThere goes my breath, coming out in small, shaky, shudders

I cried yes but I cried more when I thought to myself that, that night Akashi died. And he woke up with bokuto and I full on sobbed from there, I don’t know if that’s what it’s suppose to be or not but dear lord it was a tear jerker

Is it possible for me to stop crying? So heart wrenching 😭😭

I'm at school and I'm trying not to cry sksjsnsmsmsAnyways, this is such a beautiful and painful work, this is amazing owo

I was bored during a lecture and read this instead.......i was bawling and ppl besides me asked if i was sick or hurt but noo im just crying over sad volleyball idiots xDDDI died inside when bokuto said he had so many things he wanted to do,,,,,,like honey ;-;Really touching fic that captures the emotions of sorrow, dread and grief incredibly well. Truly makes one thankful for the health and life that one has been blessed with

Just kill we while you’re at it, why don’t youNo, but to be serious this is probably one of the most beautiful pieces of writing I have ever read, and I love it with all my heart. It hurts SO much to read it but that’s what makes it so good. The story is heart wrenching in such a beautifully sad way, I can’t help but love it.I think what really did it for me though was the fact that the scene where Bokuto dies was one of the least sad scenes in the story, and that is really wonderful writing. The pacing, the beautiful style, the mood, everything you did managed to make this one of the best things I’ve read, and I love you for it.I may be kinda biased since I absolutely love anything angsty and sad (seriously if it makes me cry I immediately love it), but this is definitely my favorite fic ever

This was a beautiful piece. Thank you for sharing.((Overwhelmed by emotion atm, but you really brought out the emotion in everyone. Everything was so honest. Life really is unfair to a lot of people eh? But just gotta move on and not forget the good times. Nor the bad I guess. Every moment counts and all. Difficult decisions are made. Akaashi was really hurting in the beginning huh? I'm glad Bokuto found him. And Akaashi stayed.))

I want to die

Me throughout the story: UNCONTROLLABLE SOBBING.Y would you deliberately put me through such heartache author-chan????!!!! Whyyy??? Bokuto is such a sweet, pure soul, and I literally cried while reading this. This was so heart-wrenchingly good, but then aslo really sad and tragic. What a good story! I haven't cried this much since Midnight Sun. It's a really good movie starting Bella thorne, and I recommend if ur into movies like the fic u made.

HHHHHH I'M NOT OKAnyway I don't think I've ever cried this much over a fic and that is SAYING something so I love you and this and thank you for writing but also how d a r e you

Hi!I hope, this comment may find you well! Recently I stumbled on complitation of 'Haikyuu!!' fanfics, which are recommended for every fan of this show. There was your work 'In Another Life', too. I read it and was absolutely astonished. Fanfic came in handy, 'cause I probably have got acquainted with all of good content in russian Internet. You have explained by words something what happened in characters' minds amazingly. By the way, they are so lively in your fic! Sometimes you want to admonish them, and sometimes you wanna hug them and keep saying that it's going to be alright. And yeah, at the end of the work, I was sitting in the puddle of my own tears. So. I'm doing literary translation for a long time. I had a blog, where I was posting translations of shitposts and belles essays. Also I've translated one of the 'Bungou Stray Dogs' ranobes with my co-workers. I would like to ask you for an allowance for the translation 'In Another Life' into russian (tbh I was unhappily surprised when I found out that no one have done this before me). Our fandom need the high-quality elaborated angst like that. I- no, we would be very grateful.Looking forward to your answer!

I love reading angst, but...ITS BEEN AWHILE SINCE LAST ONE THAT MADE ME CRY. I tend to enjoy angst very much but holy shit, I love this and I hate this at the same time. Im crying. why am I crying. why bokuto had to die like that Im like...WHYYYY. You broke my heart with this angst and I salute you sir. You did amazing job.

god i'm so glad this ended wholesome. also i'm a sucker for major character death stories have the narrative of "we'll see each other in the next life" and they do.also the whole not leaving thing no matter what? need me a freak like that10/10

It's been like 3 years since I've first read this (and the first time was when I didn't even have an A03 account) but I've came back to it consistently and it's the first fic that I recommend whenever someone asks for a heart-tearing fic for haikyuu. Funnily enough when I first came back to re-find it I literally only remembered "bokuaka sleep au" and it took a goddamned amount of time to dig it out of all the other bokuaka fics. Still the best major character death fic in my books though. Thank you so much for writing and finishing this!

someone on ig recommended this and i have no regrets. god i cried for half of the story bc its just so damn sad but i love your writing style thank u for hurting me 😔😔

I have never cried so much in muito lifeThank you

IM LITERALLY SOBBING AS I TYPE THIS I DONT KNOW IF YOU GO ON AO3 ANYMORE BUT IM HERE TO SAY!!! THAT IM IN LOVE W THIS FIC YOURE WRITING IS SO FANTASTIC AND IM JUST. LITERALLY IN SHAMBLES. I CANT STOP CRYING. GOOD WORK AMAZING WORK FANTASTIC WORK THX FOR WRECKING ME

my eyes are no longer functioning because too much water wass spilled. is this what suffering is like?

This is the only fic that i've finished reading ages ago yet i can't stomach to read for a second time. However, it's worth coming back to over and over again just to see in the comments how many casualties it caused. This is actually my very first death fic and has become a benchmark for the succeeding fics of the same kind that i've read and, so far, nothing tops this when it comes to the train wreck it caused my heart but i do believe it deserves more love, more reads and more kudos. To the author, there's a tumblr user who shares the same name and i wonder if its you coz i'm hesitating as to whether it is appropriate to rant about this masterpiece on that page or if i would be barking at the wrong tree.

I'm honestly trying so hard not to cry right now. Like, my eyes are stinging and my chest is tight and I'm taking deep breaths to calm down but- Aagh! Mean! I love you and hate you at the same time! I just- have so many emotions nghhhhhh I really liked your portrayal of everyone. None of them were too ooc (though I can't say for certain since nothing like this has happened in the anime or manga.) But I think all their reactions are realistic and suit their personalities. Besides characterization, your writing was great as well. I think the pacing could have been a tad better, but the emotion and imagery was lovely. Your writing skill really is good. It has good flow. I hope they get to live together happily in another life. That ending... my heart still hurts. I'm in desperate need of some Bokuaka fluff. The only thing that keeps flittering annoyingly in my head would be Akaashi's parents. Is Akaashi really that good at keeping a straight face that his own parents didn't notice their only child's emotional turmoil? And do they notice when Akaashi stops going to the hospital? Did they just think his internship has ended? And what about Bokuto's parents? Or were they not important to the story?

These feels ;;; how could you do this to me???Here I lie in bed, sick, thinking 'hm time to read some bokuaka isn't it?' scrolling through ao3 and seeing this ff (NOT SEEING THE MAJOR CHARACTER DEAD TAG STUPID ME) and thinking 'well, this looks good lets give it a try!' I WaSN't REaDy FOr THis aMoUnT Of ANgSt I normally don't cry reading angst and stuff like that but you did it But really you did a really good job here and this is now one of my favorite bokuaka fanfics (and the fangirl life being like it is I read many) SO PLEASE CONTINUE WRITING AND MAKING ME CRY

Yeah. So. Rude??? How dare you make me feel these feelings??? I saw this fic linked on a tumblr post and was like, "Hey, I love my boys. They aren't done justice nearly enough!" and then my heart got handed back to me on a silver platter. But like. I'm not angry. Because this piece was so fucking good. Soooo fucking good. Your pacing was great, and your handling of the subject matter was realistic and well done. I mean. I'm trying to write a thoughtful review but I'm lowkey crying in my office at work so take it as you will. Thank you for the wonderful story.

Fuck. Why did I read this. I always tell myself I’m not gonna read ‘half your top is dying in a hospital’ fics because they always tear me to shreds and leave me a sobbing mess and haunt me for years to follow. But they’re always so incredibly powerful and beautiful and remind me of the suffering in the world and how incredibly brave a so very full of love people are and how we all just want to make a connection. No matter our circumstances. We want love. And this whole time I read this I was saying to myself ‘turn back. You can’t handle this. Turn back’ and the cloud atlas references were killing me cuz I had to stop that movie so I could sob and heave for ten minutes before I could control myself enough to finish it. But I just couldn’t stop. It was too beautiful. So here I am sobbing my eyes out at 3 AM knowing I’ll never see this ship the same again and knowing this story will hit me at random times throughout my life and I’ll feel so much pain but also so so much love and joy at being alive because that’s how these stories affect me. So. Thanks I guess? I’m hurting.

Oh my god why did i do this to myself fuckkkkkk

OH MY GOD MY HEART HURTS. MY EYES HURT. MY THROAT HURTS. EVERYTHING HURTSThis was so beautifully written. The whole time I was trying so hard not to burst into tears and Bokuto is one of my favourite characters in Haikyuu and this was just uugghhhhhhMy heart hurts for all of them but in the end at least Bokuto was no longer suffering and he was able to spend his final moments with the person he cares about the most. I'm such a wreck

Cried for an hour and Im still at the middle of the fic. I have a lot more to say, but this is great, just amazing. how dare u

omg your fic is so amazing i cant even (even though it kills me everytime i read it)

Well fuck im crying at work. This was beautiful

When my friend rec-ed me this fic, I almost immediately closed it because of the major character death tag because I'm a weak ass bitch who can't handle. her angst well. But here I am, two hours after I decided to read it, in tears with a broken heart. I don't know what to say it's just. hurts. hurts. hurted. I'm a bit incoherent but you wrote this so well and the angst is so good and the dialogue and everything. It's so hard to pick a favorite part because honestly everything was just so well written :( Everything was so /raw/ and painful and paced just right that. it hurt right to the very end. "His entire body was relaxed. His head rested on mine with the weight of someone's who's unconscious." That's the line that broke me the most, tbh i don't know how to describe it but that. that line broke my heart over and over again and even as I write this comment I'm still thinking about it. I don't know what else to say but thank you because this fic is jus. amazing. thank you for sharing it with us <3

OKAY so I saw a drawing of this on tumblr and reblogged it and someone said "oh have you read this? read it" SO I did. At one thirty in the morning while eating a strawberry lemonade popsicle.It tastes like tears. I'M CRyING INTO MY POPSICle ThANk You THiS WAS VERY GOOD I HAVENT crieD AT A FIC in A LONG TIME!!Your characters feel so human and real, with real emotions and reactions to situations. Your dialogue near the end with Bokuto KILLED ME. ANd the way they started casually using each other's first names just ... ugh. so good. In the best/worst way. KUROO'S VIDEO!!! I was gasping and trying not to start cRYING.THREE WORDS - I. Just. You. Youuuuuuuu. Good dialogue. Good writing. This was where I actually started sobbing. The love was so real. the small words in the last few paragraphs that made me laugh and sob and had to close my eyes and push my laptop away in order to compose myself in order to finish the last few sentences - "weary, well rested eyes." WELL RESTED - hnnnnnnggggg i can't breatheI love angst because I'm usually good at just feeling the emotions and not losing my composure.... but I lost it this time. This is the first Haikyuu fic I've read (I'm pretty new to the fandom) and It was a great one to start with. Keep writing, my friend.

iWhyWhy would you do thisHow can you mess people’s emotions like this**w h y** (Still a great fic, despite the tears i enjoyed reading it)

I thought i could endure reading this. Never been more wrong. I am weak. I'm not on the verge of tears. I'm already all cried put. This was so hearthwrecking. I just... can't...

I've been crying for a whole hour. I've never felt so heartbroken, I can't even begin to explain. Every word of this is beautiful and I could actually feel every sentence. I love your work. Thanks for bringing the most beautiful tears of my life

I cried so much while reading this, and the ending especially is just

I knew this would be a f*cking sad story, but I clicked it anyway. Now, I need to compress my eyes cause it hurts so bad from crying. DAMNIT!!!Love your work so much LittleLuxray ~ sama!!!!!!

WHAT THE FUCK I CRIED SO HARD!THIS IS TOO GOOD! I'M IN TEARS.I LOVE THIS SO BADLY.

Oooooooooohhhhhhhhh god, that was one of the most heart wrenching things I have ever read. Oh god, I couldn’t even brawl over it because it was oh god. I don’t even know how to describe it. Your writing is amazing by the way. But I did appreciate the ending there. Thank you for writing!

Oh my goodness. This was amazing, and not only did I cry a lot, I will probably think about this fic for a few weeks and cry even more. The way you built up their relationship is well-planned out and coherent, and I can't help but think this is the best angst I have read in a while. Thank you so much for writing this <3

Look at me, sitting here holding back tears on the train to my dormGosh fricking dangit   (Aka your writing is amazing)

Omygod. Why am I crying so hard?!?!?!??!?!?! WHY?! I AM SO DEVASTATED RIGHT NOW. I MEAN WHYYYYY?!?!??! But a damn good story! Thank you so much for writing this!

I just watched The Cloud Atlas, and i blame you for the fact that i kept thinking if this while watching it, and it made the crying wOrSe. But all in all im so grateful for this fic, and honest to god i hate you for killing my baby, but i love you. While i dont like seeing my children suffer, i still feed off of gay love and angst, so thankyou for this blessing of a work of art. God i could keep ranting about how much i love this fic, but i wont. Anyways, youre an amazing author, so thankyou for blessing us readers w this Bokuaka miracle.

You got me hard. My Emotions arrrgh it was heavy. You made my crying, not hard but tears escaped my eyes in silent and Fall down slowly. It was so beautiful, my stomach was filled with an entire Zoo, it were almost to much for my little heart. That story is so damn beautiful, you know? It's just so baaaaaam and you read it, and you smile because you know how it will end and than you See how strong Bokuto and Akaashi are, and you have to be too. I would call it one of the strongest Kinds of love. It was just so beautiful, you are so Talented to Put it in words. The emotion Akaashi had, wow my honored respect for that. This story is a New league of fanfiction. The way you describe all the People was so full of heartwarming emotions, you Put a lot of effort in this, and I am sooo thankful that you finished it and presented it to us!! I can only imagine how you got throw Stages of sadness. Because it's Bokuto to see, to Feel him like that is just incredible sad. And you Transported these feeling so well into your story it was wow. Wow, thank you for writing!

oh my god thanks for making me want to cry I KNEW THIS WAS GOING TO FUCKING HAPPEN IT BUT I COULDN'T LEAVE LIKE AKAASHI I WAS TRAPPED UNTIL THE VERY END but anyways thank you so much for writing this although it must've hurt to kill Bo I'm gonna scream about this forever

Gosh I’m crying. This was so beautiful but so heartbreaking at the same time.

OMGGGGG THIS IS SOOOOOO GOOD AND SAD AND BEAUTIFUL AT THE SAME TIME T.T I LITERALLY CRIED. A WHOLE. RIVER. No, i cried a niagara falls. Just so you know, this is so well-written. And i appreciate your effort to look into the FFI so then u could write this:’) the way you put akaashi and bokuto’s characters in place are so... absjsldjajanxksjaksoxjoksd can’t say more bcs it’s just flawless for me. Really. Thank you so much.. (i literally cried, no joke omg) :(((

EXCUSE ME WHILE I JUST CRY :( But seriously this fic is so well written! You made the characters seem so real and my emotions were starting to get to me a bit :'(The ending was so bittersweet and I loved every bit of it :) please write more you're really good at it!

WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS

This was so wonderfully written and I am crying my eyes out but bless you for writing this it’s beautiful. Beautifully depressing.

This ... This fic is so beautiful ... I can't handle ... I cried like A LOT (i needed it, it's cathartic). Thank you for your work, it's amazing!

this was just... incredible. I have no words. I'm currently sitting in a Starbucks trying to control my breathing and hold myself together and not just cry. this was incredibly well written, I have to give you props for that. As a writer myself, I can only wish to be able to invoke as much emotion into the readers of my work as you did with yours. on that note, I also hate you because I don't know how I am going to sleep at night without remembering this and feeling my heart break completely. I typically go for stories with angst but still with a happy ending, so this was quite different for me (I avoid these because I know I'm a gigantic baby). I found this through tumblr and was slightly reluctant to read it, but I'm so so glad I did. I will always treasure this story and keep it close to my heart. please keep writing, you're really talented <3

omg, why do i do this to myself. This was so beautifully written! I looked up Cloud Atlas and watched the trailer just to understand some of the context and I started crying halfway through the trailer CAUSE I KNEW WHERE THIS FIC WAS GOING AND I WAS GOING TO BE IN SO MUCH PAIN. I loved every second I spent reading this fic and this has only deepened my love and appreciation for bokuaka.

I'm crying, you've ripped my heart from my chest, and I thank you for it. I love this in the only way I can, tragically.

I think I just died This is both incredibly cute, and equally heart wrenchingI just have a lot of feelings...I'M NOT CRYING YOU'RE CRYING.........pls keep writing and never stop

I AM SOBBING I LOVE THIS SO MUCH

I just spent the past twenty minutes crying as I read this. I've never been moved by something like this before. I fucking knew what I was getting into when I started reading this. This wasn't the first fanfic i've read with a character death, but my god I felt like I was Akaashi, sitting there with Bokuto this whole time. Amazing writing honestly. So beautiful

Oh, my heart! So beautiful.

i never cried so much by reading fanfiction before so this is the first time for me, the story is so damn beautifully written and i know, i know he's going to dead soon but i'm still not ready ;----; it's really painful to lose someone as lovable as bokutomy heart started to break when it said "Bokuto no longer smelled like a hospital. Bokuto smelled like... Home." it's my fucking favourite line now sorryand i really like when you use the word "You are beautiful."as the last word that Bokuto wanted to said before he lost his ability to speak, imo it's just the most innocent way to tell that Bokuto loves Akaashi so much ;---; good job you there, thank you for writing this;-;

This was the most beautiful and heartwrenching thing I have ever read.

Fuck you

This was posted long ago but I happened to find it just now, and it's seriously one of the best fanfictions I've ever read. It expresses everything so beautifully that it seriously made me cry soooooo much dkdnjdnd i love angst and something like this was just what i was looking for. IT'S SO GOOD AND I REALLY LOVE IT, THIS IS PROBABLY MY FAVORITE FANFIC RIGHT NOW SO THANK YOU FOR WRITING IT

I am crying but not and I don't know how to explain that. This f*cked me up so bad I'm not even sure what my emotions are right now. How does one convey the amount of sadness that can possibly go through someones mind at once just through a f*cking fictional story? I am hurting and it's all your fault. Never stop writing please. This was a beautiful, incredibly sad, heart wrenching story and I can't seem to get over how amazing your writing skills are. That is all I can think to say right now but overall, thank you for writing this. It was a lovely angst story. I bid you adieu. (*-*)/

This was so sad but so well written, and honestly something I really needed to read today. Thank you for writing this.

tHIS WAS HEARTBRWAKING AND PAINFUL I LOVED IT SO MUCH GOD BLE SS

I don’t know if I hate myself for reading all of this at 3-5 am when I was already an emotional wreck, or if I’m just unable to find coherent emotions that aren’t crying. This was wonderful, and I wish I could find better words to describe this, but I’m so tired and so teared out that I can’t. Thank you for your wonderful work <3

Oh dear god

This was probably one of the most beautiful stories I've ever read. And at the same time, probably the one that ripped out my heart with each passing passage.Thank you so much for this.

I AM COMPLETELY RUINED!!!! THIS WAS SO SAD WHY WOULD YOU MAKE IT SO SAD?!?!?!? I can’t stop crying I just want to be happy. I think I’ll ever read another angst bokuaka fic. This seriously has made me cry so much. It was nice written tho

I knew it was coming. I thought I was prepared, bit apparently I still cried. This fic got me crying at 7AM on a Sunday. You totally made me feel what Akaashi felt gOD I feel so hurt. Overall, I just wanted to say that was a great angsty fic and I'm glad I read it.

I could never see Haikyuu the same way again

This was beautiful

Why??? WHYYY??? I'M CRYING OMYGOSH THANK YOU? I'M THANKING YOU WHILE CRYING THAT IS SO WEIRD THIS IS SO SAD I CAN'T ANYMORE THIS IS A GREAT HEART WRENCHING WORK OF ART RIGHT HERE

Apparently it's not enough to make a person cry but on top of that you don't have any other ff on here that could maybe ease the pain - rude :DThanks for writing this even though it was painful to read - which just means you did a really good job ;) The characters really don't feel like just some ff-characters but they have life in them which is awesome and like... they don't always act how you expect them to. Have a nice day!

I love this!I looove this very much!____"I'm already in... Death row. I can.. B-arely speak. I can bare-ly walk... I can't eat. I can't... Sl..eep.____ <- This is my favourite part. That 'can't sleep' part especially hits me so hard. Bokuto had to be in so much pain and he was exhausted and weak but he couldn't even sleep to help himself forget the sickness for a little while. Bokuto was suffering too much. This is too saddening. I can't.I couldn't type my comments right away. I had to sit still and stare at my laptop monitor for minutes. My heart felt empty. Like, I suddenly was feeling the urge to invite someone to have a good deep talks about love, human psychology, rare diseases, life and death and shits.Also, just like a LOT of people that read this masterpiece, I cried like a bit*h. Too much like a bit*h. My grandfather caught me crying and I was a bit embarrassed. Still, all this pain is worth it.I don't know if I showed it enough but I love this. I really do. Bokuto and Akaashi are meant to be together. They are each other air to breath and live. If they aren't together, they just found each other in a wrong universe. *Personal. I was a little frustrated at the lack of '-San' after Bokuto tho. I especially love it when Akaashi says 'Bokuto-san' like whoa boi so sexy

Oh boy... This was sad... Guess I should have heeded that 'major character death' after all, amirite? All jokes aside, this hit kinda close to home. My dog died recently. She was old and we knew it was coming. My sister was sleeping on the sofa next to her, and she woke up in the middle of the night, and she was gone. I was still awake, and I heard my sister get my parents, and I wanted to avoid it for a while, so I didn't ask when my sister came in. Now we've got past my sob story, it might be a little more obvious why some scenes had me sobbing like a baby.

WHO GAVE YOU THE RIGHT!!!??What did i just read with my 2 eyes??I could barely read the last paragraph because of tears.Im shaking.I dont think i have a heart anymore.What have u done?!(its unfair how well it is writen)What is this?? ;___;

Even though I cried please never stop writing. I LOVED IT!!

I was already crying in the halfway of this fic, but the last sentences left me sobbing my heart out. Because they found each other in another life and as a parallel universe believer, I am punched in the heart at 2 am. Thank you so much for writing this wonderful fic I am blessed and I don't know if any other drama will satisfy me ever again. Thank you. Thank you so much for also letting them get back together in a peaceful life OMG I don't know how to stop crying

"You are beautiful" i can't believe it but that was worst than "i love you" ... THEY DIDN"T EVEN SAY IT BUT THEY KNEW BUT IT'S WORST BECAUSE I'M SAD AND I NEVER HAD WANTED THEM TO SAY I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING

I’m crying so hard that I cant breathe

This was,, fucking amazing?? Dear God, I've never smiled or sobbed this much over a fic before, and the ending was tragically beautiful Thank you for writing this, oml

OMG I COULDN'T STOP CRYING. THANK YOU FOR WRITING SUCH A BEAUTIFUL AND SAD SAD FIC T________T I can't deal, my heart is withering away omg i rlly cant T_____________________________T

THIS HURTS ME SO MUCH AND IM GLAD

Hi! I forgot to leave a comment here last last night when i read this fic bc i am in tears :( i really cried a lot bc bokuaka is my main otp and tbh this is my 2nd fic w/ character death. i usually avoid it when i see one but my love for bokuaka didnt stopped me. my first character death fic is a bokuaka too and it did not end well with me :') although it was a minor chara death, still. sorry for ranting about other stuff haha i just wanna say that u really did well in breaking my heart. it's well written, slow paced that you'll feel the pain slowly creeping in your heart. when i saw the tag and when i read the preview, i alrd know who's gonna die :') until today, the fic is still vivid in my mind that i actually cried into it again. and i'm about to visit japan again like, next next week and i remember the snow :') now im kinda sad. i really love the snow but know, it'll remind me of this. IM NOT BLAMING U THO. I REALLY LOVE YOUR WAY OF WRITING AND THANK YOU FOR WRITING THIS. even tho it's really haart-wrenching, i dont regret reading this. it's so realistic... and i'm kinda mad bc no one aside from akaashi, kuroo, and kenma visits bo? like why. and when akaashi told kuroo that he won't attend the funeral bc he'll get mad at those ppl who only showed up when bo was alrd dead, it hit me so deep. and i also got mad bc of that like YEAH AKAASHI HAS A POINT. WHERE TF ARE YOU ALL WHEN BO AND AKAASHI HAVEN'T MET YET. He have panic attacks and you'll just leave him alone there??? i'm so sad and so broken, and im sorry for rambling these things to you. you're that great of a writer bc you manage to put me in this state. its not a bad thing tho. and you know, someone in twitter draw a fanart for your fic and that's how i discovered this masterpiece. the artist did really well, the moment i saw the fanart, i felt the pain. i didnt even read the comments below so i wont be spoiled. the artist linked your fic and i started reading it asap. i enjoyed every bit of it and how well-developed the characters and the plot is. (and im crying rn, i cant help it im too weak and a crybaby) ANYWAY, THANK YOU SO MUCH. UM PLS, WRITE A BOKUAKA FIC WITH HAPPY ENDING NEXT TIME :') i dont think my poor heart can take it when it's all angst. YOU REALLY DID A GREAT JOB!!!! ILYSM!!! HAVE A GREAT DAY!!!

THIS HURTS ME SO MUCH AND IM GLAD

Oh my god, I've cried so hard. I'm still crying. This is actually the second BokuAka fiction that made me cry so much. Congratulations, your work in amazing, heartbreaking and cute at the same time. Keep up your hard work.

This is honestly an amazing piece of work you have here. It really brings emotions to the forefront of one's heart, and I feel victim to tears that threatened to spill over from the second I realized what was happening there at the end. I love it.

This wrecked me. I was surprised when I started tearing up and even more surprised when I started to sob a little and let me just say I am not an easy person to make cry.This story was beautiful and written beautifully, that L you for creating it

This hot home for me because I had someone who I met online and ended up falling for pass away, it wasn't from FFI but long story short we met through roleplay in the yuri on ice fandom and I told her that I liked her and she at first did not return my affection so I just gave up for a little bit. Come to find out later from her she was diagnosed with brain cancer and in about august I told her that I still liked her and she confessed to me that she liked me back which I'm so glad she did because the following month she passed away but I'm saying that to say I was thinking about her the whole time I was reading this, I miss her so much but I know that she's still with me in my heart and while this was painful for me to read because of that it was still beautiful and well written.

THIS FIC MURDERED MEI saw the fan art first on tumblr and I knew I had to read it!!!! I’m now crying in my living room thanks The way you made bokuto happy until the end is so great! The ending completely wreked me thank youThis is the greatest and I’m so glad I read it!!!

I LOVED THIS ANGSTY PIECE OF GOLD OH MY GOD. I have no words to express how much I love your writing. It's all so real, the descriptions and imagery in the story. And that scene with Bokuto and the snow just.. gripped my heart. Thank you for sharing this piece of writing!

I don't normally read ship fics but this one came highly recommended and I need you to know you drove me to tears so well I actually had to set this down a couple times to calm down. You write emotion so well! Sign me up if you ever publish anything.I lost it when Bo died but the scene in which Kuroo and Akaashi, two people who aren't normally like that, cry so openly to each other, I had to join them on the sob train.Thank you for such great but painful story.

You can't imagine how much I freakin cried while reading this, but still it was so beautiful and wonderful to read. Oh God... my heart just... ahhhhhh! Thank you a lot for writing this and putting this tears in my manly eyes

I don't know where to start this, I think I'm too dazed and upset to form a coherent thought. I however can affirm that I never, and trust me on this, never cried so much in my life over a story. I was a broken dim that spilled every two sentences and I'm being completely honest. My head hurts and I'm at a loss of words, I don't know where to start describing what I went through while reading this if not by only saying that it was hell. God I wish I never found this but I'm SO glad I did.I really thought I was going to choke on my tears more than once, especially when Bokuto asks "why me" or when Akaashi wakes up to find him.. gone (it is so hard to say it..); I feel broken right now. It's incredible how much I can actually cry over fan fictions and many may find it stupid but oh God, nobody will ever know how much this made me feel pain and sorrow and grief and so much misery, it's unsettling but also beautiful.I thank you with all my heart for writing this (a little less for all the tears you made me shed) and I wish you the best. Take care!

i thought there wouldnt be any more emotion coming from my cold dead heart but this proved me wrong. your writing is amazing. i feel the grief. parallel universes will never cease to fuck me up. i hope your life in this one is amazing

I'm crying so much as I write this comment

I wish I never found this damn story. But I'm also so glad I did. I've never cried this much reading a fic. I had to finish reading this in the restroom so I could cry my eyes out in peace. Everything about this is written so beautifully, all the emotions are so raw and real like all the different ways people cope with death and dying. I absolutely lost it when Bokuto said he wanted to meet Akaashi again in a different life. And they "found each other" again in Akaashi's dream. Dammit I'm so weak. That was so beautiful.

this was one of the saddest storys ive ever read. but it was so damn beautiful. Thanks for your great work, it left me in tears

GOD... i crying so hard im havin trouble typing this since my vision is completely blurred bc of all my tears... i can't en say anything, just that i cried so much, i actually had to get up. at fuckin 3 am to get a box of tissues i can't remember the last time i cried this much oh my god what a fuckin beautiful fic...

I cried so much

OMG I just found this (years too late) and I was originally not gonna read it bc of the word count and like i didn't really have the time to spear (from hw and all that) BUT I'M SO GLAD THAT I READ IT.THANK YOU SOOOO MUCH although it made me die a little on the inside.I look forward to anything and everything else you post here.thanks so much for breaking my heart ( in the best possible way??)

This was...............beautifully tragic. I can't really explain....but it made me feel so many things.......I hope you become a writer someday. Thank you

THIS IS SO GOOD ASDFGHJKL but anywags i gotta ask, what is the meaning of the ending? Like, why is Bo healthy and stuff? Is it just a dream?Also, i expected an "another life" scene where Bo and Akaashi meet again in the next life or sth but omfg 100/10 for this book!

Probably you'll never read this, but I still want to let you know that this beautiful work of yours is one of the best fanfic I have ever read. Seriously. Do you even realize what you wrote?! The perfect story, that's what. I was looking for something to read, something angst, something that would broken my heart, and here I came. God, I'm so glad I did it!Also, while I was reading the snow part, "Too much is never enough" by Florence + Machine started playing in my headphones and yeah, I kinda died inside (and now I consider it this story's official soundtrack).I have nothing else to say, but thank you, thank you again for writing this beautiful piece and sharing it!

I'm crying so damn much...

No matter how many times I read this it never gets easier, it's really beautiful but damn it hurts

Wow.... Just wow... This hurt my heart. Your writing is beautiful!!!

this was so beautiful and i will love you endlessly for creating this, even if im crying like a baby rn. thank you so so much!!!

Oh my dear lord bless this fic. I can't even express how much I love this jfc. I'm awestruck and this broke my poor little fangirl heart into a million pieces at 3 am T_TKuroo crying literally had me in tears for about 20 minutes.MA POOR BABIES AND BLESS YOU AND YOUR SOUL FOR WRITING THIS AAAH

Why do I do this to myself? I had this bookmarked for months, knowing that if I read it, I'd cry my heart out. But I finally gathered the courage read it and I can surely tell you, I cried really hard. Even know, tears are running down my face and I have two wet spots on my bed from my tears. So thank you for that. I can say that it was really well written though, It just had this really smooth tone to it that I can't really explain, but it really made Bokuto's death a lot more bearable.

This is only the second fic to make me cry real tears and Im like,,,full sobbing right now. This was so well written, youre so talented!

/takes a deep breath/ man what a roller coaster ride of feeling.....

holy shit, this. is. heart. wrenching. I'm surprised I made it through the the whole thing without completely /sobbing/ and waking up my mom. I almost stopped right after you introduced Bokuto, I was like "SHIT, FUCK NO MY CHILD WHY!?!?!??!?!???" I don't even know why I put myself through this, but I hate it and love it at the same time. But bitchcccchhhh fuCK you're /so/ god damn good at writing I honestly felt myself dying everything something cute or fluffy happened, then I remembered, "this is supposed to be sAd????" WHY MUST YOU DO THIS TO ME(lol sorry for my rant, amazing story (fic??) though!!

I haven't cried this hard over fanfiction in a long time... This is a work of art I loved it! I hope in the future you write more like this. It was heartwretching but beautiful.

Dear gods... This was such a good story. Thank You for writing it and giving me the ability to cry and feel within the universe of the story, throughout.

i don't remember the last time i cried this hard. this was beautiful holy crap but i'm in so much pain now

me: *sees major character death warning*me:me:me: *reads*me: *angsty stuff*me:me: *keeps readingme: *tears spill like waterfalls out of eyes*AGHH THIS WAS AMAZING IT WAS BEAUTIFUL THANK YOU SO MUCH I HAVEN'T CRIED IN A LONG TIME TLKDJALWJEA;KJTE

i've read this for millionth times now. but im still crying crying like a little baby when i read thiss again.. and my head hurts so much right now from crying too much. thank you for making this great story, I LOVE YOU!!!!

I cried so much and it's the middle of the night and I just.. I can't T_TAt some point I just kept reading with tears streaming down like a river. I even stopped reading, collected myself, washed my face and when I came back it was enough to read one (ONE!) phrase that I went back to being a mess of tears and snot. Why?!?And it's the midnight of Bokuto's B-Day... Babe, I'll protect you with my body and soul! (ง'̀-'́)งI'm so bad with stories with angst. My heart break a lot every time! I don't want to go to sleep now, I'm too scared This was heartbreaking, both in a good sense (amazing writing) and in a bad one (THE PAAAAIIIINNNN (╥﹏╥)

i cried how dare you

welp. reading about my fave dying slowly and horribly. great way to spend a friday night! no but really, this was super intense and i cried a bunch and im still crying now and i'm in pain and i don't know whether to kindve hate you a little or applaud you because this hurt like crazy to read. A+ i'm in pain

YOU SATAN. I FUCKING BAWLED LIKE CRAZY. THERES NO WAY I CAN CURE THIS PAIN. IM.

This was so so good! I ended up crying like a baby and it felt like my heart had been ripped out but I loved every second of it. It was stunning.

I cried so hard reading this... This story was beautiful, thank you so much for writing it. I've re-read several times, and your writing itself is quite elegant, this was a pleasure to read.

Way to shatter my fragile heart. Thanks. Really needed that.

this is the first and only fic to actually make me full on cry omg. this is so angsty and touching i cant get over it. your writing is amazing thank you so much

I'm not really..good with words. And I'm about to say the same thing everybody else has said. I cried very hard in fact, even if it was only in the end. While I was reading, it was like a movie playing in my mind. I usually don't cry for movies, (and I know this isn't a movie, but the best stories and fanfictions I read I call them movies in my mind.), but I cried for this. So thank you. You made a beautiful story, and portrayed beautiful characters into a tragically but in end heart filling sad blissfulness. Bless you.

I KNEW THIS FIC WAS GOING TO HURT ME LIKE A BTCH WHEN I DOWNLOADED IT. GUESS WHAT. I WAS RIGHT. I CRIED SO MANY TIMES WHILE READIMG THIS LIKE AT SOME POINT I JUST LET MY TEARS FALL WITHOUT REMOVING MY EYES ON MY SCREEN. I FELT SO GROSS AND MISERABLE THE ENTIRE TIME. GOSH. I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT TO SAY. BUT SRSLY THANK YOU FOR THIS. DESPITE THE PAIN, I ENJOYED SEEING BOKUTO AND AKAASHI'S STORY UNFOLD IN THIS AU. I LOVE IT SO MUCH!! <3 NOW IF YOU'LL EXCUSE ME IM JUST GOING TO READ LOTS OF FLUFF FICS TO MEND MY BROKEN SOUL :')

i'm sobBING

You've ruined my life I'm crying

I WAS SOBBING RIGHT FROM THE GET GO AND THIS TOOK ME SO LONG TO READ BC I COULDNT SEE THROUGH THE TEARS. BUT IT WAS BEAUTIFULLY WRITTEN AND EVERYTHING FELT SO SINCERE AND SWEET BUT SO HEARTWRENCHING DAMN IM IN PAIN BUT DAMN THAT WAS GOOD

I can't stop crying, oh my gods

I cried /so hard/. Tears were rolling down my face for a solid 15 minutes at the end. This is such a beautiful piece of writing thank you so much for gifting us with such a heart wrenching pleasure. I haven't cried that much in a while oh Lordy. GOD this is just /so/ so so beautiful.

I'm sitting here in the middle of the fucking night sobbing my eyes out because your goddamn fanfiction reminded me of all of the death I've ever witnessedyou shouldn't be allowed to write

that was really good. angst omg. thank you for telling me about a disease i didn't know about. how did you come across it?

just destroy me then

MY FRIEND FORCED ME TO READ THIS I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT THESE CHARACTERS LOOK LIKE IVE NEVER EVEN WATCHED A VOLLEYBALL ANIME BUT HERE I AM REGARDLESS CRYJNG IN MY CHAIR OVER TOO GUYS WITH HARD TO PRONOUNCE NAMES DAMMIT NICE WRITING THOUGH

*ugly sobbing* I don't even know what to say...it is really beautiful and touching - heartwrenching. I really like your writing and they way you portray everyone. I love that you show different ways of dealing with grief. It's really hard to describe the feeling of terror (before) and emptiness (after) that the loss of a loved one bring us but I think you did it very well. Thank you for your work <3

oH MY GOD. I haven't cried this much since like my entire life. I don't know why but your fic really struck a cord in my cold heart and oh my gosh. Your writing style is awesome, it's super realistic with aspects that give off that 'holy shit' vibe. It's not even predictable 'cause I hella thought Bokuto would survive miraculously but I failed to notice the warning but I don't regret reading this. And that 'you are beautiful' part was astonishing and the way that Akaashi sought for the Bokuto who was alive when he died, the fact that he even buried his face in Bokuto looking for warmth and not telling the doctors and stuff and so much more. You are truly an awesome writer even though you have trampled my heart with this fic.

Me at the beginning: Hurt? Angst? I'm ready! Fuck me up!Me at the end: *sobbing grossly* j Ust fU ckm E upI actually first read this on your fanfic net or whatever it's called and I just reread it and I hate you so fucking much this is so good. I mean I knew halfway that shit was going to go down but REALLY? REALLY? YOU END IT LIKE THIS? YOU KNOW WHAT? NO FUCK YOU I HATE THISJk I love this to bits and recommend it to EVERYONE regardless of whether they like Haikyuu or not because this, my friend, is a fucking work of art. This SERIOUSLY deserves so many more kudos' like good God. I've rarely come across something so heartfelt and genuine. All the emotions portrayed, the behaviours of the characters were so realistic and it exactly how I would imagine them to act in the anime.The way you've just described everything was so beautiful and I can tell you put a lot of thought as well as effort into researching about this disease. The way the scenery described, how the characters see one another, the reality about having to face something so physically and emotionally painful. You are truly an amazing writer and I wish more people could see that. And as much as it hurt to hear Kuroo refuse to see Bokuto anymore, it just makes you realise that this doesn't just happen in fiction. Really you've made this story so realistic that regardless of the characters, it can be applied to so many situations. People should read this not just for the characters, but also because it's such an eye-opening experience.I would shower you in more praises but I think I've already talked too much XD Anyway I just really wanted to let you know how appreciated you are and how amazing this fic was and i really look forward to reading more of your works

AHHH FUCK IT HURTSTHE TEARS WONT STOP AGHH*DISTRESSED WHALE NOISES*I LOVE THIS THO JUST THE ANGSTAnd sometimes I imagine Akaashi dies and then he wakes up in a court with Bokuto standing in front of him, a grin plastered on his features, "Toss to me, Akaashi?" then Akaashi gives him a small smile, "Of course."

oh fuck i just spent the past hour reading this and now im a crying mess and my parentns are judging me THIS WAS SO GREAT

I'm speechless. What do you say when you have just read one of the most beautifully written story? These characters aren't even real and I'm laying bawling my eyes out. You portrayed everyone flawlessly and I'm just over all very happy and sad that I have read this. Bokuto, I hope you and Akaashi see each other once more.

i cant believe that the last time i read this was in december but i kept crying from the first instance of "apathy-kun" onwardsi had a sudden urge to revisit this fic. i dont know why. i could feel physical stirrings in my chest from begrudging fondness and so much pain and i dont think i can face the world properly again i flat out sobbed uncontrollably like i did last time, maybe a bit better because the arrows and barbs in this fic found less friction in reopened wounds. covered in salty tears.I STILL LOVE HOW H U M A N THE CHARACTERS ARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i almost repeated myself from my earlier comment because DAMN this doesnt strike a nerve this bursts my left aorta i am so hcking d e a d i cant believe i thought this was a good time!!!!!!!!!! to read this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this fic is going to haunt me forever im going to stab my left KidneyIM STILL CRYING THIS FJFKDKSJSKKSKAKAKAKA "I'm so sorry" YOU SHOULD BE

ok i am a bawling MESS this was beautifully written and i just love this so much ugh

I've been reading this slowly for like the last two hours, and it's 4:05 AM now. I'm pretty sure I've never cried this much in my life.. not to mention this is my first Bokuaka fic I've read... oh my god your writing is so fucking beautiful and I was sniffling the whole way through but what broke me first was when Bokuto, who seemed so strong and who tried so hard to be a positive, happy guy, finally cracked while he was watching the snow and from there on out, I was legitimately crying my eyes out and trying to keep in my inhuman wails because my parents are downstairs. And then there was "you are beautiful" and that made my cry even harder and I was so happy for Bokuto yet so sad because he really did love Akaashi and I was so glad that Bokuto's entire world was sitting right then and there, but then I really really didn't want it to end so soon and THIS FIC RUINED ME IM JUST A SOBBING MESS RN I DONT THINK ILL BE GETTING ANY SLEEP TONIGHT HAHAHADHSF thank you so much for writing this gem :'))

I've never cried more in my entire life.

I've been slowly reading this for the past hour, and my heart is what could be considered "completely wrecked". Honestly, it is quite hard for me to fully immerse myself into stories like fanfiction, even more so to cry over them. Even watching my favorite anime series, tears don't really fall for some reason. That being said: By the time I was nearing the end of this writing, I felt my throat close up and when I got to the ending paragraphs, I had to sit my phone down and wipe my eyes because I was crying so hard, my vision blurred the screen. I couldn't even type this message out for ten minutes due to actual, low key sobs making my hands too shaky. This was wonderful and bittersweet and everything my heart was not prepared to endure. While immensely, overwhelmingly sad, I just want to thank you for making me feel and care so much. This is truly a diamond I have stumbled on, and I've already sent it to half a dozen people to experience.Thank you, again.

Jeez, okay, wow.Gotta handle these tears.It took me two days to read this, since I had started at night.Right after Bokuto's death, I couldn't handle having to read more, so I went to sleep crying.I hate how I knew that Bokuto would die, and when it would happen.(Honestly I expected Bokuto to say "I love you" too, Akaashi.)I also loved it, a lot.This story was amazing, and the care and love put into it is even better.And don't even get me started on the purity of Bokuto and Akaashi's relationship, I may cry again-Thank you so much for writing this story.Kudos to you!

/sneaks in and hugs you and sobs into your shoulder/ Oh gosh. I don't know where to begin. So I had known about FFI and as someone who has insomnia most of the times I always find it a terrifying aspect to think about this. But back to the topic at hand. This fic, destroyed me. First of all your writing style! It's so fluid and easy to read and has this beautiful flow in it. And the way you've captured Akaashi's and Bokuto's personalities. Spot on. From the start you had me going in 'oh my god' to choked 'no's and the part when Bokuto is hopeful for meeting in a better life. Oh gosh, I had to pause and walk a bit to gather myself. Not to mention Kuroo and Kenma, their appearances, emotions, thoughts had me on the brink of crying. And then the part when Bokuto calls Akaashi beautiful. Those three words. I wiped tears at that point and thought "is a fic really making me cry?" (Because I don't tear up, I have my heart feeling squeezed but never tears) And the way you ended it with Akaashi's dream. "You found me". I cried full blown tears, I was sobbing, it was the middle of the afternoon, I had chores to do, my 13 year old brother was concerned and I didn't know how to compose myself in front of my mother. Basically it really had an effect on me. Your writing is beautiful. Never stop. Your ideas conveyed in this fic, their interactions, the regrets, the sorrows, the little bursts of happiness and the powerful ending; it just makes me want to read it again and again. I probably will end up reading it tonight. Thank you. I hate you but I love you and if I had the chance, I would hug you for sharing such a wonderful and heart wrenching storyHave a great day!

this fic was so well written and so amazing. i lost it at the part where bokuto started talking about finding akaashi in another life omg

Holy shit I haven't cried reading a fanfic in forever but I cried reading this. I absolutely thought Bokuto was going to tell Akaashi he loved him, and telling him he was beautiful instead was amazing and heartbreaking at the same time. And Akaashi's conversation with Kuroo, about his last memory of Bokuto was really good.

I don't speak or write english properly, but you make me write this. I'm sobbing and crying so hard that hurts, this is the most beautiful and heartbreaking fanfic ever, reading this Bokuto, YOUR Bokuto broke me, he is the most akward and precious child in the world and see him like this...omg I can't stop crying xDThat moment when you put Cloud Atlas in the middle was my sentence of death, because I love that movie for the same reason and that is the reason for lying myself with the end, is not a dream, Akaashi is awakening in other life with Bokuto and they live happy and healthy forever .This was so perfect...I'm gonna reading again, someday, when I can do it wothout crying...naaa I'm gonna do it tomorrow because I fucking love it Thank you, for you effort and for writing this wonderful thing. And sorry if my english is hard to understand. But you worth the risk of expossing myself and my horrible grammar xDGoodnight.

I saw the post on Tumblr, and the moment I opened this I thought, "Oh boy, I'm going to be in so much pain. Whoops."How you managed to make it about 50x more painful than I imagined it would be I have no idea. I can't stop crying. Like, I'm trying to see through the tears can't stop. I was sobbing into my hand so I wouldn't wake my roommate because go figure I read this at 4AM. You took one of my favorite pairings and shattered them before me and all I want to do is thank you for that even though I'm in pain.Also, I loved the moment Bokuto told Akaashi "You are beautiful." I had to stop there and absorb it for all it's worth because it was too painful.

oh my god my heart hurts so much. this is my second time reading this, and I have no idea how I found it the first time a while back, but I remembered it and reread it right now just to :)))) suffer. Your writing was so detailed and beautiful and even though the ending was inevitably there the slow burn and description of everything hurt so much. I'm actually trying to calm myself down right now because I'm crying so much it physically pains me, but thank you so much for writing this.This is definitely my most favorite piece for bokuaka, and for anything on ao3 in all. It's just so well done and it was such a genius pace. I'm in awe at this and I'm just going to finish off by saying this was completely amazing. <3*wipes tears*god ok I said I was going to finish off right there but i cant stop talking it was just so terrible im crying again. Bokuto is such a sweet baby owl I cant imagine him dying and sickly and suffering. It hurts so much jfc help...pls..Okay im done oh my god. thank you again. <3

I've never cried so hard in my life wow aha. But in all honesty this is such a wonderful fic and I really did enjoy reading it

I'm crying a lot. That was beautiful. I'm a mess. God, I.... so dead inside... I-I love it... ~sobs I-I'm... ~cries a lot~ I need a hug

Oh gosh this took me so long to read because I started crying so much half way through. But I don't regret it because it was sooo good!!!

i'm in so much pain

Never cried so hard

This utterly destroyed me but I don't regret reading it one bit. Thank you for the beautiful piece ;A;

I'm crying so hard right now, as much as it embarrassed me to type that ;///; But this is a masterpiece. This was truly a masterpiece, and I'm more of a muted person when talking about my emotions (especially when I'm crying and it's this late), but this really is a masterpiece. I showed this to a few people I know in relation life, and they're actually hooked on Haikyuu!! now because of it! It was that amazing.I really can't stop crying though, I've never been this emotional over a fanfic before.

I started reading it a while ago and then had to stop. I'm not going to lie, at first I thought that it's um.. a bit too cold? I'm sorry it sounds a bit bad, but I think it's an important part of what comes next. So I thought that something is not right, the way everything felt kind of emotionless, and the way Akaashi was. And I started thinking that it's too hard for me to read and probably I can't go until the end. But then it wouldn't leave my mind. I would find myself thinking about your fic and today I was like, okay. I'll check it again. And here I am, still sniffing slightly after finishing it. Now I think that that "cold" beginning and lack of emotions made everything a lot better. After all that even the smallest detail seemed - and was - so important and it gave so many feelings. Everything felt so incredibly real and that's the scariest part (and at the same time best). I really liked how you created the characters. How you didn't really have to write about emotions to actually convey them. And I really enjoyed the changes in characters. I think the most emotional parts were Bokuto starting to cry when he was touching the snow. I felt like crying a lot of times, but then I couldn't stop the tears. Another one was Kuroo sending that video. And then, Kuroo and Akaashi crying together. My favourite part though was when Bokuto wanted to his last words to be different than the ones he said. I loved it so, so much that you made him write that Akaashi is beautiful. Bokuto telling Akaashi that he is beautiful is one of my most favourite things with them, and it fit so amazingly well here. It made me feel unbelievably happy and sad at the same time. It's getting a bit long but there are just so many things I want to say. The other thing I loved to bits was Akaashi thinking that Bokuto smells like home. I'm a sucker for this kind of thing, and again, it fit there so beautifully. The last thing I will say is about the last scene. Just..thank you for ending the story with a bit more positive note? Even though it's a dream, it was so nice to see Bokuto well and both of them happy. I believe it's the best ending we could have asked for, and it just...shows their characters and their relationship very well.It was painful to read it and it hurt a lot, but the story was great. Thank you for writing this, you did really well.

This is amazing......... It's the first time in years since I've cried so hard (literally, on the outside, not the inside) over a piece of writing. The way you wrote their love, even if they didn't tell each other, was incredibly moving. I love your writing style, it's easy to read while still being elegant, and I hope you write more in the future! I really wish I could write a longer and more meaningful comment for you, but I'm quite literally at a loss for words ;; Keep up the lovely work!!! ((Btw I also really love your art)) <3

I'm crying so hard right now I can barely see what I'm typingWHY WOULD YOU DO THIS THERES SO MUCH HURTon a serious note this really does strike a chord with me because it's so hard when someone close to you dies and you really do want to feel like Kuroo and try to distance yourself as much as possible. it's an incredibly hard and unpleasant thing to do, because while you want to be with them and help them through their pain, you can't let yourself get too close because you don't want to see them in pain and you yourself don't want to have to feel the pain they do. thank you for writing such a beautiful piece, it truly is a tearjerker.

"Major character death? Haha I can handle that" and now everyone, myself sobbing like mad.It's like all the The Fault in Our Stars thing coming back to me but WORSE, with my most dearing characters of this anime world in it. I swear this fic made me cry more than TFIOS did. My brain was like "shit shit no please no no no please shit no fuck no no no no SHIT fuuuuucccckkkkk" the whole time while I was reading, and now my face is all wet with tears. It's really amazing, this fic, haven't read any amazing one like this for a while. Great job! :-)

I'm crying so hard, my parents get woried heheheSo it's amazing congratulations (clap clap) But im angry with u for killing Bo '3'Bye byePs: i'm from Brazil so my english suck, and i translate this with google translate ~flying kisses

I've only cried in 3 fanfictions ( not including this one ) , And this is probably a bad start to 2016 , but when I had read this , my heart shattered . I'm usually stoic , but this really got to me . Especially when Bokuto typed " You are beautiful " . P.s. , thank you for writing this , I felt more emotions then a average person should at 4 a.m. XD , and more emotions then I do usually . - From Random otaku that's a bit too obsessed with bokuaka -

What the fuck? I haven't cried like this in a very long time

This fic was so emotional, beautiful and sad, it made me cry a river.I am happy that my friend said I should read it. I regret nothing. Still... iT DESERVES MORE KUDOS OH MY GOD Thank you so much for writing this fic!!

Oh my god. That was sooooo good but so emotional!!!! I had to wait to stop crying to comment lol. But your writing is soo good! Keep up the good work :)

I can't remember the last time a fic made me this emotional. I cried. Several times. I loved it!

I thought I was prepared for this after I saw the tag but .. I am crying right now and it's 1 in the morning... Your writing style was so fantastic and I loved the story .. at first I couldn't believe its 23k words long but it was so good .. you broke my kokoro T^T

I am actually crying right now. Literal tears. That almost never happens when I'm reading, and I don't know whether to applaud you or hit you. I just... was not ready for that. I didn't even notice the archive warning until akaashi read that the disease was fatal and I was like "wait wait wait what???" Anyway my point is, this was really well written but now I need to read some BokuAka fluffiness

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I just wanted to say, this is honestly an amazing story one of the best i read. The atmosphere of the story is so gentle and reassuring, like he will actually come back again and live happily with everyone. It honestly amazes me how much i love this story, thank you for creating this masterpiece.

Thank you for this treasure. I can't stop crying.

AHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA . . . *nervous laugh*Fuck you. I love you. But fuck you. This is such a beautiful fanfic, it destroyed me. Tbh I read it about 10 days ago, but I didn't have an account back then and was busy crying the whole night after finishing it...I'm in BokuAka hell and this beautiful piece of angsty lovely emotions threw me in even further. I WANT TO DIE. Somehow I was hoping for Bokuto to survive the whole time because I noticed the Major Character Death tag waaaay toooo late, lmao R.I.P. me and my dumb ass. I should start checking fanfics and their descriptions properly or someday this is going to cause my death.Anyway; THANK YOU SO SO SO MUCH. I CAN'T TELL YOU HOW MUCH I LOVE THIS. IT BROKE ME...BUT I LOVE IT SO HARD, OHMYGOD. Not sure if I want to kill, hug, slap or marry you tho. I'm so done. Bye. *sobs dramatically*You did a really good job here. I'm German so I don't know if my opinion is useful to you, but I'm in love with your writing style. It's fucking perfect. Flawless. Dude. You. Are. My. God. Of. BokuAka. *breaks down* Hoot hoot. ♡

So I read this like the moment you posted this but I could only summon the will to comment now. This fic was beautifully written, so well in fact that it is the second work of fanfiction to make me cry in my twelve year history of reading fanfiction. I absolutely loved the story, how Akaashi grew as a character, to perceiving Bokuto as someone who was just sickly to someone he grew to love. I loved how Bokuto grew to someone who was strong and brave to someone who had to accept the reality that he was going to die, die young with so much still to do. I eve loved how you wrote Kuroo--and at first I was angry that he wouldn't visit Bokuto in his final days but in truth I'm not sure I would want or be able to see my friend waste away and die, not being able to do a thing. This was such a great fic, and it was even more amazing that you wrote about such a rare disorder that a lot of us know nothing about, but is so, so tragic. Thank you so much for writing this. Thanks for making me cry too, haha. The fact that I did just means that this story, and your Bokuto, really touched my heart. All the best, and keep writing please! Taishainu

Holy shit this is the most beautiful yet heartbreaking thing I've seen I'm seriously crying you are so talented, thank you for sharing a piece of your talent with us, whoa this story truly touched me it will go with me wherever I go from now on.... thanks ♡

This story broke my heart and made me cry... I loved it so much. So beautifully written ;n;

IT'S HERE!! omygoodness i read this on ff, and such a beautiful story, absolutely heart wrenching, i love it.thank you for writing this. ^o^

Reading this was one of the worst and best decisions I've made. But mostly best, i think. Reading it on the bus and crying a waterfall was definitely one of the worstest though. I enjoyed the beauty and the sadness very much, thank you!

im gonna go watch cloud atlas and cry now lOL

real talk: i cried halfway through this and full on sobbed at the end this was actually heart-wrenching ok look it's technically my fault for ignoring the major character death tag but i don't regret it this story is amazing

holy shit.... what have u done ;-; this fic was so amazing it deserves so much more kudos. literally i wish i could kudos for every tear i shed...

Oh my good lord. This probably hast to have been one of the most beautifully written fanfictions I have ever read( and that's over 6 years of fanfictions.) I cried so much throughout and by the end I was sobbing hysterically and my mum had to come and comfort me (I somehow managed to miss the major character death warning.) Although it left me in such a state, I'm absolutely thankful that I've been able to read this-as it truly is an amazing piece of work, Thankyou. c':

I came into this reluctant cause I'm a big fucking baby and I missed the character death tag? Lucky cause I probably would of passed on if I'd seen it (again- cause I'm a baby). Or am I unlucky? Ha ha I'm not really sure. And like it isn't that I regret reading this cause it was beautifully written but about half way through I had an ache in my chest and tears streaming my face and I had to stop time and time again and ask myself 'why am I reading this?'. Because this story was gorgeous and lovely but I am heart broken and even though it's painful I'm glad. Maybe I'm a masochist haha. I cry a lot over pretty much everything ha but this one truly moved me. Thank you.

oh god I saw this on fanfiction. net and it made me cry and writhe internally (though the crying was prolonged and very much external) I didn't even realise that the word count was 23k???? I just picked it up early morning and got a general sense of "this is going to hurt me a lot I can feel it" even tho I didn't see a major character death tag lAUGHS and didn't know that i'd be wailing in anguish even though i fully expected to at least........ tear updear god this was a ride and it was!!!! so great!!!!!!!!! I loved it!!! so much!!!! screams I hope to see more of your writing soon....on to the story when akaashi woke up in the last part i felt part of myself die i love how incredibly human and mortal everyone is and????? im sorry that I'm being an incoherent mess of too many punctuation marks and a not very linear flow of commentary (gushing) but this was really so good!!!! and i thought the characters Do Not Necessarily Know What To Say Or Do in a realistic sense and they are Affected by their own emotion to do things that may be morally or otherwise "wrong" (im describing it in a very black and white sense but thats totally not the case) and it's so real and it leaves such a heavy impact and weight on what they do do like man...... this entire fic is my jam..... kuroo not wanting to visit... akaashi trying to avoid bokuto @ first..... akaashi honestly saying that he regretted meeting bokuto (and later Honestly Saying That He Didn't Regret Meeting Him which tears at my soul)....... there's a distinct feeling you can have and you can get so drawn into the writing and the emotion of everything and........ i cant really express everything i think abt this fic but really its so great and youre so great and please keep writing more!!!!

tEARS ARE SPILLING OUT OF MY EYES

this made me cry so much?? I thought that I was prepared but no, I wasn't. Thank you for writing this I rly love how you wrote this it is beautiful

AHHHHH!!!!! What a wonderfully angsty story! I'm a sucker for bokuaka and angst, and this, this was amazing!❤️

I'm fucking crying so hard and I can't stop holy shit save me (also bless you and thank you for writing this I am in love with this fic and your writing style)